It just struck me. If I am in hibernation so I can describe
to you the process of letting Jesus heal me, I must then go through this
process myself again… Oh no… It means I must sink back into that place of pain
where I was before, and let it flood me, to the point where it hurts so much, cripples so much that I simply can’t take
it anymore and just give up and surrender to the purifying, healing, refilling
love of God…
I can feel them already, sneaking on me… The painful
memories… The injustices… The horrible things people said and did… For no
reason, just out of cruelty or indifference…
How can people be so blind to the basic needs of
their fellow human beings? How can they treat each other so insensitively? It seems
that knowing each other’s weaknesses doesn’t inspire a desire to complement or
assist, but to take advantage of or to ridicule somehow… Even those who would be expected to behave in
a less destructive manner, like those who are connected to NGOs and Christian
ministries, are all about personal gain, from head to toe.
I have seen so much destruction in my life, of good
things, things which I produced with hard and diligent labor that were deliberately destroyed, simply for the
sake of destruction.
The pain for the things which I have lost… the faces
of the people who are responsible for the loss… their snide remarks… It’s
hurting me!
I am going to sign off now, and go and spend some
time talking to Jesus about all this!
Stay blessed, and stay tuned…
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